Fate and fate

Now i already said it.. i want to hide this for months.. but i don’t have a choice..

Please Mr. Fate.. what did i do for this things to happen? I dont have any regret in having a child.. i know its a blessing.. but a treatment coming from the father????!!!! Those words!! As if im the one who started all of this!!

Those dizzy days.. the days that i wanted to blow and vomit!! The hard mornings to get up.. haissssttt

Im leaving soon then ill be hearing harsh words!.. i tried to give him a hint before..

I need to gain weight

I need to drink vitamins

Life and death situation

Soon youll see me gaining weight..

Im always emotional

But i cant say it directly as i dont want to cause much troubles.. as i always think about his family..

Am i that bad person to be treated like this? As if im a trash! Yeah a trash!!

Dont worry my child.. i can show u the world.. ill be a good mom.. i wont see your father again.. ill keep you.. i know he doesnt want you to as he doesnt like me as well..

Come on my child.. be healthy.. bear with mama.. hang in there and mama loves you.. ill be healthy and we will be home soon.. dont get mad to your dad.. he is a good father to his child.. he is a good man.. we just barged in.. so we need to go..

Mr. Fate.. help me to raise my child to be a better person unlike me..