I surrender.. i cried a lot these days.. I opened up my feelings to my aunt and my sister.. and explained the struggles that Ive been through this past YEARS.. how Im in deep shit and cried for entering marriage that i really dont want.. how tired am i in everything.. how i want to regain MY life that i can consider MINE.. how i want to be happy..
IM SO TIRED… AS IN IM SO TIRED.. TIRED of everything.. tired of giving.. tired of thinking of making other people happy.. tired of insisting.. tired of a lot of things.. tired of being a daughter.. tired of being a WIFE of someone who is not capable of loving and someone damn I really dont love!! Damn this papers!!
I want to escape from everything.. I wanted to go to a place that nobody knows me.. that i can start all over..
But didnt confess everything to them.. i want to cherish some memories i had this few months.. that made me happy even a short time.. that i know will be gone soon as he wants to resign and move to his place.. i know.. im one of the reasons why he wanted to resign.. to avoid me.. i wanted to beg not now.. i wanted to beg please give me more time.. you can go in few months but not these SOON.. leave me on the last quarter.. i wanted to be with you till summer… but im not selfish.. i cant and wont say him to stay more if he wanted to go.. but ill be in damn shit.. and i dont know what would happen to me as im in regaining myself.. please stay just till summer…
Pleaseeeee… 😭😭😭😭
