Last Night.. I had a dream.. I don’t know If I’m still dreaming that I have tears on my pillow or its real..

I woke up Hugging my pillow.. In my dreams.. we are walking together.. he is holding my hands.. then.. he suddenly leave my hands.. and walked away from me.. I tried to call his name but he doesnt look back.. suddenly tears burst into my eyes.. my heart stops from beating.. my hands and feet gets cold.. I cried and cried and my knees began to fall..

Will this becoming soon in reality.. because slowly I’m feeling it.. less messages.. less meeting ups.. haisssttt… I don’t know.. maybe.. soon you’ll leave me too.. 😭😭😭😭

 

 

I was walking down the street going to CDG etoile station, seeing numbers (maybe a hundreds) of people wearing yellow jackets.. and number of policemen.. police car.. As Im listening to my music.. I just smell something undefinable that is irritating to my eyes.. my nose down to my throat.. and see a fogy place near the triompe.. and then…. I HEARED THE SOUND some what like a BOMB.. thrice!! OHH NOOO.. then I called Up my dad to say I think I cant make it.. then my mom called me up asking wheres my exact location.. and I told her “Im passing in the middle of the demonstrators and the police men lol” then she told ” DO YOU WANNA DIE??? in panick voice lol… and I said No.. (murmuring after 29th I can die lol) I just wanna check if the station is open.. then I end the call just to avoid her panicking words.. then another Tear Gas has been throwned up.. with yelling sounds of the demonstrators.. I started to go back in the other street… then I almost cant open my eyes.. then I walked fast (though I really cant walk fast lol) lots of Police in the street..

Then I asked my dad.. whats happening?.. then he just told me its because of the president.. all about the taxes and everything..

As I hear the story.. I just cant accept the reason On why do they have to ruin the tourist spot.. Why private stores?? They have nothing to do with it.. the businesses and the employees will be affected by this not the president.. TAXES??!! go to the Philippines and Its worst (though its better now than the previous admin)

For the demonstrators.. they should have.asked for open dialouge from the president than do this..

For the President.. this should be an eye opener for you than being a LEADER is not just LEAD.. a Good Leader is also a GOOD FOLLOWER and A GOOD LISTENER.. Your running a famous Country… the 3rd world country should looked upon you and not mocked u..

#PARIS

What is Love? Its giving yourself to someone (not just physically huh) being with someone.. trusting someone.. happy to be with someone..

How can you say your in love? Its being Happy.. Contented and at peace.. your looking forward to be with that person and just LoVe.. Its hard to explain but the feeling is undefinable.. its MAGIC!! 😍😍😍😍

When do you stop from Loving? When it hurts.. when ur not happy.. when you just wanted to sleep than to be with him.. when you feel exhausted when with him.. and when your hurting one another..

What is Important in Love? Its COMMUNICATION.. TRUST and being SELFLESS.. LOVE is not SELFISH..

We cant force LOVE.. We cant force someone to love us back.. It should be a mutual feeling.. Sometimes.. we cant define the emotion that OMG its already LOVe.. but hey! LOVE takes time.. but first.. Learn to Love yourself… Know your worth.. LOVE should not change you for worse but to be BeTTer..

LOVE hurts.. Yes it is.. Youll feel the worst emotion when your hurt… But you cant define Happiness when you dont know the feeling of being hurt..

Sometimes.. Its better to Let Go when you felt the same PAIN almost everyday.. when youre not happy.. When it crashes you.. when its tearing u apart and makes u feel exhausted.. when its draining you.. Its not LOVE..

#2017Post

 

 

How to be alone?? IM THE PERFECT MODEL for that..

Wants to be alone? YEAH.. FOR A MONTH OR MORE..

Why alone? ID RATHER BE ALONE THAN TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHOSE LIKE…..!!!!

Is it good to be alone? JUST TO REGAIN MYSELF.. TO BRING BACK ALL THE PIECES THATS BEEN MISPLACED..

ALONE… It doesnt mean you wanna get gaga or depressed.. It just that.. Sometimes.. Its better to be alone specially when your encountering such as earthquakening problems.. It doesnt mean your closing your doors with every one.. Its just that being ALONE.. you can think of your worth.. how long can you still go.. and you can pick up everything and after GET OUT of your ROOM and you can say HELLO to a Brighter and New Beginning..

#2015POST

 

 

 

I just received an AWARDS!! 😍😍😍 I got the 2 major Awards this year.. but whats the used of those awards when Im about to leave? 😭😭😭

Yes.. Im leaving.. Im thinking.. How would I start?.. PARIS FRANCE.. the best in place to go to as they say.. But the place who divides my family ( bitter! Lol)..

Lets see if what life can Paris have for me..

 

If a mom can take care 2 or 7 childrens a day.. well congratulate me for looking after 303 childrens In a day haha.. Im not the biological mom but they all came from my heart..

YES! I know.. I graduated In one of the Best Schools in the City! But I find this as a calling on my part.. Im happy and Fullfilled with this kind of job.. I cant replace it to any jobs in the city.. where as I already experience working in the office and working In well known AMAZON.. but… still.. Im happy with this one..

But a big BANG had happened!! IM MOVING OUT!!! I felt restless and dont know what to do.. its my mom and dad whose asking me to be with them.. should i? Or rather would i? 🙂

Spell HAPPINESS!! I really cant describe the emotions that I have right now..

Praying for this day.. Hope it would really come.. If not.. maybe.. Mr. FATE is MR. FAKE..

What Im talking about? Soon…

Hey Mr. FATE.. I saw Him again in Metro.. why?? IM MORE CURIOUS on whats your purpose..

One afternoon.. we see each other.. at our secret park.. 🙂 when were about to home.. we went to check a part of the park.. and we KISSED!!! I was never been to heaven.. but in his arms.. I felt I was in heaven.. I want to stay in his arms.. Just be inside.. But he needs to go.. 5 mins is up.. 😢😢😢 but its Ok… I understand his situation.. I dont want to make it hard for him..

The days continue.. we chat… and we bumped again in metro.. and something changes.. less message.. I was so afraid.. So afraid that he might be gone any moment.. he might leave me.. and he is just taking it slow.. OmG…

DAY 2:

Every OFW has there own stories on why they are here or any part of the world.. Some of them.. really want to be here, like personal choice or decision.. Some are family pressure.. Some wants to escape from the poverty in the philippines.. but different reason.. But aiming Just for one.. GIVE A BETTER FUTURE TO THEIR FAMILY..

As my personal experience.. As I experience being sick  in that just one point.. I really felt the difference.. I once told myself.. “hey! Your not in the philippines… your not at home”.. Let me tell you how it goes here than in the Philippines.. Once your sick (in PH) you have an easy access to the doctor.. you can easily buy medicines needed.. and at the same time you can call anybody.. Its when ur really in Pain theres someone to go to like “mang”.. In Paris, theres a lot things to do first before going to the doctor.. you cant buy medicines just by your self.. you need a prescriptions and medicines are expensive and at the same time.. you have to take care of urself alone.. because all of the people here are busy at work.. its like Time is Gold, not everyone is available to look after you because they have an employer and not allowed just to be absent.. Good thing is that.. We have a family here that look after us and keep on monitoring us from time to time.. but how about others? What about them?

So sa mga pamilya nila.. mas maganda na kamustahin naten sila para maramdaman nila na may nag aalala sa knila

#BUHAYPARIS

DAY 1 BLOG

Kanina habang naglalakad akong mag isa sa Victor Hugo.. andame kong nakitang mga Pinoy.. Andameng kwento.. haba ng pila sa padalahan akala ko may sale sa haba ng pila hehehe pero nde po ako nagpadala hehe. may naiyak dahil masungit ang Amo sa tapat ng Franprix.. gustong gusto kong gumawa ng blog about sa mga OFW na nag ttrabaho dto.. na hindi madali ang buhay nila dto.. sari saring trabaho.. sarisaring kwento na hindi alam ng pamilya nila sa pinas.. pag nasa metro ka ang bibilis nilang maglakad.. naghahabol ng oras para sa knilang mga trabaho.. may kumakain sa loob na ng train dahil oras na ng lunch na mqy susunod pang trabaho..

Akala ng mga kamag anak sa pinas madali ang buhay dito pero hindi.. mamahal pa ng bilihin.. isang tinapay 1 euro hehehe.. isang coke 1.50euro.. bago isang meal sa Mcdo 9euro.. tapos may mag mmsg pa na kamag anak.. papabili ng damet.. haru joske.. sa H&M ang pants 24 euro pinakamababa.. maswerte ako nakabili ako ng sale hehe.. tapos sapatos 40euro pataas.. akala nio mura?? Isipin naten.. isang oras kang magttrabaho kikita ka ng 12euro.. pambbili mo ng pagkain mo at iba pilit itatabi pambili ng pasalubong sa mga nasa pinas.. alam mo unh maglalakad ka ng may isang kilometro pinaka maigsing lakarin.. masarap matawag na “NASA PARIS” pero sa likod ng pangalang PARIS ang malungkot at nakakapagod na araw sa kapwa naten PINOY.. na uuweng mag isa sa kwarto.. kakain ng kalahating baguette pantawid gutom may maiuwe lang na pera sa pamilya sa pinas, maswerte ka if may kasama kang pamilya na hindi kayo tapat ng oras ng trabaho para makapag luto ang isa para nde delata or roated chicken or pizza ang kakainin mo pag uwe..